I wonder what exactly thoughtlessness is? Considering me an object? An object to desire because of my looks? An object to desire because of certain personality traits or an object not to desire because of any of the above mentioned reasons, it all comes to the same. Does it not? Pure thoughtlessness. But on whose part? Mine? For letting others be thoughtless about me? Or theirs for considering me an ‘OBJECT’?
Am stuck in these questions and I would remain stuck for at least another 10 days as far as I understand. The pain would increase with each passing day, ending at a decision that will actually tell me if I am a DESIRABLE object or an UNDESIRABLE one.
(Sunday April 18, 2010)